Amory Blaine\'s "Mirrors" in Fitzgerald\'s This Side of Paradise


In F. Scott Fitzgerald\'s novel This Side of Paradise, Amory Blaine
searches for his identity by "mirroring" people he admires. However, these
"mirrors" actually block him from finding his true self. He falls in love with
women whose personalities intrigue him; he mimics the actions of men he looks up
to. Eleanor Savage and Burne Holiday serve as prime examples of this. Until
Amory loses his pivotal "mirror," Monsignor Darcy, he searches for his soul in
all the wrong places. When Monsignor Darcy dies, Amory has the spiritual
epiphany he needs to reach his "paradise" - the knowledge of who Amory Blaine
truly is.
Amory appears to be a rather vacuous choice for a protagonist. He
relies mainly on his breathtaking handsomeness and wealth in order to get by in
life. He has been endowed with brains, but it takes him years to learn how and
when to use them. Amory spends his late high school and college years
frolicking with his peers and debutantes. By constantly associating with others
Amory creates an image of himself that he maintains until he becomes bored or
finds a new personality to imitate. Amory does not know who he really is, what
he truly feels, or what he thinks. He merely cultivates his personality du jour
depending on how he believes he would like to be. Essentially, Amory is
shopping at a personality store, trying each one on until he can find one that
fits.
This personality imitation began when Amory spent his adolescent years
in the presence of his flamboyant mother, Beatrice. Beatrice raised Amory to be
what she wanted him to be, as long as it was stylish and acceptable to coeval
virtues. When he goes to Princeton, the separation from his mother, who
essentially thought for him, leads Amory to search for himself. However, his
idea of searching for his identity entails merely simulating the personalities
of those he admires. This trend becomes obvious in the pattern of Amory\'s love
interests. His first conquest, Isabelle, is a strong-willed girl who knows what
she wants. Amory falls in love with her because of her distinct personality;
perhaps subconsciously he feels that by being in her presence he makes up for
not having a personality of his own. Amory\'s next love, Rosalind, represents
Amory\'s latent desire for the riches and luxuries that he lost with the death of
his parents. Amory imitates Rosalind, who is most certainly a spoiled brat,
because he wants to live like her again. Amory misses the spoiled brat quality
of his childhood, so he searches for it through Rosalind. After she ends their
relationship, a heartbroken (and spiritually lost) Amory searches for someone
strong who can bring him out of his state of mental disarray. Because he
installs the qualities of the women he loves in himself, when Amory loses a
girlfriend he loses his personality and must find a new one. The answer to
Amory\'s problem manifests itself in his third cousin, Clara, who, despite the
death of her husband and serious financial difficulties, lives a fulfilling and
rewarding life. Amory\'s affair with Clara does not last long, but it serves its
purpose of supplying him with a personality until he finds Eleanor Savage.
Amory claims he is attracted to Eleanor because of "the mirror of
himself that he found in the gorgeous clarity of her mind" (202). This
demonstrates the fact that Amory does not consciously realize his actions when
he emulates other peoples\' personalities. He does so because he knows of no
other way to create an identity for himself. Speaking of Isabelle, Amory says
that there "was nothing at all to her except what I read into her" (170). This
seems rather ironic, considering the exact opposite of his statement reflects
the truth: Amory consists of nothing save the qualities others project into him
when he associates with them. However, Eleanor brings Amory to the point at
which he seems almost ready to shape his own individuality instead of mimicking
others. The shock he receives after Eleanor has a violent mood swing and nearly
rides her horse off a cliff makes him realize that his life is on a fateful path.
Eleanor and Amory hate each other after this realization, but the hatred has a
good quality in that Amory understands that he "had loved himself in Eleanor, so
now what he hated was only a mirror" (218). Choosing to emulate Eleanor\'s
dementia proved to be a bad decision along the course of Amory\'s search for
himself.