A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man: Conflicting Desires within a Doctrine


In the story, A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man, written by James
Joyce, the main character Stephen Dedalus has many encounters with women. Women
and sexuality are major influences on Stephen\'s adolescent life. Another major
factor that has an influence on Stephen\'s life is the Church. Women and
sexuality conflict with the Church and its beliefs, and that is one of Stephen\'s
major problems thus far. Stephen is having a very big identity crisis, from
being a God fearing Catholic to a very hormonal teenager.
As Stephen sits at the "adults" dinner table for the first time, his
father, Mr. Casey and Dante are fighting about religion and politics in Ireland.
As they are arguing, Stephen\'s train of thought leads him to think about Eileen.
Eileen Vance was the little girl that Stephen wanted to marry when he was
younger. She is described to have ivory hands and golden hair, which confuses
Stephen with the phrases, "Tower of Ivory" and "House of Gold" which is part of
the Roman Catholic Litany of Our Lady. Later when Stephen is at school, he again
thinks about Eileen. Stephen gets his first sensual experience from Eileen when
she puts her hand into his pocket and touches his hand. Stephen gets quite
confused with the terms of the Litany of Our Lady so he starts to associate the
"Tower of Ivory" and "House of Gold" to Eileen. The way James Joyce describes
the scene, "She had put her hand into his pocket where his hand was and he had
felt how cool and thin and soft her hand was."(43) gives the reader the idea
that Stephen enjoyed the feeling. The only problem with Eileen was that she was
a Protestant and Stephen was a Catholic. Stephen also associates women with the
Virgin Mary, who was the mother of Jesus Christ. He thinks women as pure, just
as Mary was and since he already associated the "Tower of Ivory" and "House of
Gold" with Eileen, he assumes her to be like the Virgin.
Another influence of women in Stephen\'s life comes from the story "The
Count of Monte Cristo" while reading this story, Stephen starts to fantasize
about Mercedes. As he fantasizes, he tries to bring her to life through another
girl, known as E.C.. He has many sexual longings for E.C. but can not understand
and is frustrated by his feelings. Knowing that his thoughts and his actions
"perhaps he had been masturbating" put him into mortal sin, Stephen is very
burdened. Alas, Stephen is overwhelmed by his desires and ends up going to a
prostitute. This prostitute is a mix of what he was looking for in a woman, the
Mercedes characteristics "she came over to him and embraced him gaily and
gravely… her arms held him firmly to her"(101) and the motherly/pure
characteristics " she passed her tinkling hand through his hair, calling him a
little rascal."(101). Although Stephen knows that he is sinning he wants to
break away somehow from the good of nature and experience what it feels like to
be fallen like Adam or Lucifer.
When Stephen hears the sermon by Father Arnall, he feels remorseful of
his actions. He thinks that the sermon is totally focused on him. And from
hearing this sermon, Stephen decides to change his ways back towards the church.
He does such a good job of being "Holy" that he is asked to join the priesthood.
But this makes him go on a surge of power hunger. He thinks of all the power and
respect he will get if he joins the priesthood and of all the secrets that he
will hear of women and girls. This again makes him to think lustfully and makes
him sin. He finally decides that instead of entering priesthood, or for that
matter, even live a religious life, he would become an artist and free himself
from the doctrines of religion. When Stephen makes this decision, another girl
is influential in making this happen. Stephen sees a girl on the beach and he is
taken by her physically beauty but also compares her to an "…angel of mortal
youth and beauty." She was what all the girls before her were except more. This
girl tells Stephen to go towards art and so that is how he finally decides to
lead his life.
Stephen has experienced many different feelings that were conflicting
within him from his own desires to